Fear Of Nothing
The Fear of Nothing is when You see someOne Suffering, and can Do Nothing about it. It is a Natural part of Parenting, it is not in friendships.
The Fear of Nothing is when it goes Silent. Chattering innards of Revelation and Reality, Shared with Commonality and Understanding, twist and turn in a sea already Churning.
There are times when there is just nothing I can do as I watch someone's life deteriorate around them. I do not understand why it seems to be happening more and more. Is it that I am more Aware? Is it that I care about more Individuals than most? It likely has little to do with me.
And still I ache.
I remember feeling confused the day I drove away to California. I remember the heartbreak in my dad's face on a day when I thought we should celebrate my personal independence!--Again! And I remember talking to him about how it felt to watch me, knowing I was likely to return. Again.
I Understand I am Blessed with those whom I call my Klan; each relationship has been built on this bond I have with my Father, and Each of Us have had with His Father. I have Seen how uncommon this is, yet I have drawn bonds that feel very similar, and pluck to unusual melodies, with pertinent timing that can truly bring me to my knees.
I can do NOTHING!
I See the Hurt, I FEEL the Pain, but I have been watching all the world erode around me, and I can do nothing. I have not done Well with what I have been Given, and I am paying the Consequences of Change, mySelf. I KNOW it could be worse! I could have to live this Life with children. It is enough that I watch my Friends Suffer!
That's when I have to Decide: Do I Believe, or am I just spouting meaningless words?
Do I Believe that there is some Greater Purpose, rather or not I even believe that there is a Greater being Directing My Individual Life? What is It that I Really Believe in? Do I have the Faith that will, as always Before, turn This Current Nightmare into Something Greater? Do I have Faith? Do I even have faith?
SO I do nothing. I do what I can with The Moment at hand, because someTimes I'm not exactly capable of My Best. I save My Best of This Moment to ask Those Things Beyond My Understanding, to Direct Comfort to Those in such Great Need! I ask that, even if I cannot do more, that their Needs are met in some way, and that I do Well at Living in Appreciation of the Blessings I have been Given.
The Fear of Nothing is when it goes Silent. Chattering innards of Revelation and Reality, Shared with Commonality and Understanding, twist and turn in a sea already Churning.
There are times when there is just nothing I can do as I watch someone's life deteriorate around them. I do not understand why it seems to be happening more and more. Is it that I am more Aware? Is it that I care about more Individuals than most? It likely has little to do with me.
And still I ache.
I remember feeling confused the day I drove away to California. I remember the heartbreak in my dad's face on a day when I thought we should celebrate my personal independence!--Again! And I remember talking to him about how it felt to watch me, knowing I was likely to return. Again.
I Understand I am Blessed with those whom I call my Klan; each relationship has been built on this bond I have with my Father, and Each of Us have had with His Father. I have Seen how uncommon this is, yet I have drawn bonds that feel very similar, and pluck to unusual melodies, with pertinent timing that can truly bring me to my knees.
I can do NOTHING!
I See the Hurt, I FEEL the Pain, but I have been watching all the world erode around me, and I can do nothing. I have not done Well with what I have been Given, and I am paying the Consequences of Change, mySelf. I KNOW it could be worse! I could have to live this Life with children. It is enough that I watch my Friends Suffer!
That's when I have to Decide: Do I Believe, or am I just spouting meaningless words?
Do I Believe that there is some Greater Purpose, rather or not I even believe that there is a Greater being Directing My Individual Life? What is It that I Really Believe in? Do I have the Faith that will, as always Before, turn This Current Nightmare into Something Greater? Do I have Faith? Do I even have faith?
SO I do nothing. I do what I can with The Moment at hand, because someTimes I'm not exactly capable of My Best. I save My Best of This Moment to ask Those Things Beyond My Understanding, to Direct Comfort to Those in such Great Need! I ask that, even if I cannot do more, that their Needs are met in some way, and that I do Well at Living in Appreciation of the Blessings I have been Given.