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Introduction
We all go through difficult times. For some they last years, while for others it is only a moment-the worst kinds of moments-that we must pass through. While I have lived with the stigma of a Bi-Polar diagnosis for nearly 30 years, I never really did take it seriously. These past few years learning about a diagnosis of Fibromyalgea and then the resulting trauma related to the medical resolutions, has changed much about my life.
Most importantly, I have changed my perspective. Not that I was considered a negative person previously, but the truth is that inside I whined about the "Why me" so much that it poisoned my spirit. It was not until I let go of my selfish perspective that I began to know healing.
Yes, we are in the worst financial difficulties of my life, and as a child who remembers that if Daddy didn't go hunting, we didn't have meat, that's no small measure. It is also true that learning to work through the physical constraints of a life of "wanna bet I can't do that?" leads to as much frustration as it does clever problem solving techniques. Even my emotions can be a great hindrance when the smallest thing can make my heart feel as though it is breaking when the reality is that the offense had nothing to do with me.
Still and all, I have been blessed to be able to step back and look at it all-my irritations and apparent impossible obstacles, as well as the lives of others, both neighbor and stranger, and see through gifted eyes: for every negative, there is a greater positive. No, I do not always see the positive as a situation is presented. Sometimes it can take years to reveal itself, but Knowing it is there can sometimes be enough.
I don't expect to keep it together every moment of every day. Maybe even some days, my version of keeping it together is someone else's version of letting it all fall apart. Indeed, I know there are those who specifically disagree with the lifestyle choices I have made that allows me to keep it together at all. So be it: we will not always agree.
I have revealed the process that I took to get here; this place where I am truly accepting of myself, in Living In A Bi-Polar World. Even so, it is but one process through which to find resolution. Here I continue to reveal my inner most self, as I share with you how I keep it together, one day at a time.
Peace & Love
through
Tolerance & Understanding!
Taunta Beanie
Most importantly, I have changed my perspective. Not that I was considered a negative person previously, but the truth is that inside I whined about the "Why me" so much that it poisoned my spirit. It was not until I let go of my selfish perspective that I began to know healing.
Yes, we are in the worst financial difficulties of my life, and as a child who remembers that if Daddy didn't go hunting, we didn't have meat, that's no small measure. It is also true that learning to work through the physical constraints of a life of "wanna bet I can't do that?" leads to as much frustration as it does clever problem solving techniques. Even my emotions can be a great hindrance when the smallest thing can make my heart feel as though it is breaking when the reality is that the offense had nothing to do with me.
Still and all, I have been blessed to be able to step back and look at it all-my irritations and apparent impossible obstacles, as well as the lives of others, both neighbor and stranger, and see through gifted eyes: for every negative, there is a greater positive. No, I do not always see the positive as a situation is presented. Sometimes it can take years to reveal itself, but Knowing it is there can sometimes be enough.
I don't expect to keep it together every moment of every day. Maybe even some days, my version of keeping it together is someone else's version of letting it all fall apart. Indeed, I know there are those who specifically disagree with the lifestyle choices I have made that allows me to keep it together at all. So be it: we will not always agree.
I have revealed the process that I took to get here; this place where I am truly accepting of myself, in Living In A Bi-Polar World. Even so, it is but one process through which to find resolution. Here I continue to reveal my inner most self, as I share with you how I keep it together, one day at a time.
Peace & Love
through
Tolerance & Understanding!
Taunta Beanie